I Am Just The Creation

My “Guardian”

I stood laughing in the sun
Talking and dreaming with Guardian
We danced, we played, we hugged, and sighed

Then darkness came then Guardian was gone
I searched to find my friend, my Guardian
So I can feel protected again.

Seconds passing by like minutes
Guardian was still hidden

I saw something in the corner of my eye
The darkness hid it all too well
I couldn’t even tell, it was Guardian

Something was different, something was wrong
Now hiding from the light
Cowering in darkness from my sight

No more talking and dreaming
Or dancing and playing
We neither hugged nor sighed
But instead I lied down and cried

Guardian was different, but what?
I couldn’t see clearly enough

I was scared even when Guardian was near
I closed my eyes and counted to ten, only to find that I’m still here

This demon no longer an angel
Was this angel always like this? Why couldn’t I see?

My eyes, they lied! As well as my heart.
My eyes full of so much of darkness. Just like my heart.

I finally saw the truth when I got down on my knees.
I couldn’t do this on my own. I finally realized the truth
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Lord, show me the way. Take away the pain. I’m tired of feeling scared, and ashamed.

Hold me and comfort me. Save me.
Save me from myself, from my heartache, from this grave that I continue to dig for myself.

Lord be with me, and guide me. I know I can no longer do this on my own. I need you and I need you alone

You are my Savior and my Redeemer. 

written by-CreatorandtheCreation